So, it's hard for
me to comprehend loving someone so deeply and intimately and then
pretending as if they never existed!! Many years ago I had an extremely
bad break up, and because there was so much hurt between us we decided
to not speak. This was one of the most difficult and challenging times
of my life. It kept me up at night. I went to therapy about it, and
could not rid myself of the anger and hurt! I was filled with rage and
took no responsibility for the role that I played in the demise of our
relationship. I cried about it often. Told everyone that I could, the
list of offences against my ex!
Yet even though I was angry,
I just couldn't understand how someone I loved so deeply could act as
if we never were... I was so sad that we were not able to come together
to talk it out or even be in the same room without some sort of "drama"
unfolding!
As I get older and I become more committed to my spiritual path, I
have little time for bitterness, anger, or hurt. I'm a person who loves
passionately and loves deeply. I'm loyal. And if I tell you I love you, I
will love you for life! You become my family. I pray often for all my
exes, wishing them joy, love and laughter all the things I wish for
myself.
I also realize that everyone that comes into your
life is a reflection of you... You chose them, they are mirrors of who
you are, and you attracted them. So for me, every one of my partners
have been beautiful learning lessons. I have loved them all differently.
Learnt different things. And they have truly shaped the womyn I am,
and slowly evolving to be. I loved them and I still love them all in my
own special way. I want each one of them to be happy and live inspired
lives! And I truly thank each and everyone of them for loving me
fiercely.
So my lesson to to everyone today is, I truly
encourage you, to let go of anger, hurt and blame. If there is an ex
in your life whom you feel anger towards or cannot speak to them, let
them go....let them go with love. Daily bless them and pray for them.
Don't hold on to anger it's not good. Write them a letter, send it, or
maybe don't send it. Maybe send them a peace email, reach out in a
loving way or silently release them in your heart. But you must let go
of the anger, remember that you use to love them.... and love is a
gift~always choose to unwrap it.....
"Love is a gift of one's inner most soul to another so both can be whole." - Buddhist quote. namaste
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